OK so I switched my rest day. My schedule is just too much to work out on every week day. So I am now resting on Thursday because I have school from 8:30 am til 9:45 pm. Yeah. A bit much. And til I'm done with Pippin rehearsals (2 more weeks) I'm going to have to do 2 work outs on one day. So yeah. I didn't exercise today. School is hectic. Blah.
Into the Woods auditions were tonight though! Mine went really well. We'll see what happens.
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Day Eleven
I'm not even going to post about food or workouts today because there is no point. I am just going to write about what I learned about myself. So I woke up this morning at 7:30 to take my car to get an oil change. i.e. I got 6 hours of sleep. Which was the first mistake. So I immediately go to the dealer and sat there til 9:15 and then I went to get breakfast with my friend Sarah whom I hadn't seen in a long time. Only after that did I go to work out. Also note, I hadn't taken any of my medication at this point. So I go downstairs and roll out my yoga mat and put on the DVD and start to do it and about halfway through I turned it off. I realized that I was doing the whole thing completely half-assed and there is no point in exercising if you aren't going to do it to the best of your ability. So here is what I figured out about myself today:
- I have to work out as soon as I wake up in the morning or I won't do it.
- I have to take my medicine before I work out or I will get distracted very quickly.
- I can't eat eggs benedict for breakfast anymore because it literally sits in my stomach forever. But it was delicious.
- I have to work out as soon as I wake up in the morning or I won't do it.
- I have to take my medicine before I work out or I will get distracted very quickly.
- I can't eat eggs benedict for breakfast anymore because it literally sits in my stomach forever. But it was delicious.
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Day Ten
Food/Drink: clemintine, salad with apples in it, 5 nachos, 1/2 a fishbowl (which is alcohol. which is why im posting so late)
Workout: Shoulders and Arms, Ab Ripper
Yep. That's all I have to say. Because if I say more, I'll say too much.
Workout: Shoulders and Arms, Ab Ripper
Yep. That's all I have to say. Because if I say more, I'll say too much.
Monday, January 17, 2011
Day Nine
Food: a pear, an avocado BLT, edamame, and a spicy tuna roll with brown rice. and all of my liquids were water.
Workout: cardio x
That no eating thing yesterday did not go well. I had a horrible nights sleep and woke up starving. I learned my lesson. Do not starve yourself. It is bad. And sucks. Done.
Workout was fun. I went HARD today. Like super hard. I was sweating bullets when I was done. But it felt awesome.
Today was very physically and emotionally exhausting. As you may have already figured out, I am totes using this blog as more than just an exercise motivator. Sometimes I just need to get it all out. So here we go. Read the rest if you feel like hearing about my day. If not, peace out.
Around noon my mom and sister came home with my moms boyfriends grand-daughter (I know...confusing) Skylar and we went to lunch at a cafe in my town. Thats where the BLT came from. But it was just so good I couldn't say no. And it came with a salad so whatever. I had some healthy in there. I mean honestly, my diet was pretty freakin awesome today. I shouldn't beat myself up about it. Anyway, after lunch, I took Skylar home. Now Skylar and her big brother Lucas both play ice hockey and they are very into it, so their dad builds an ice rink in their back yard every winter so the kids can practice. So before I drove Sky home, I grabbed my ice skates and ended up skating for about an hour, which is pretty decent exercise too. You can get exercise just by doing stuff. As long as you get your body moving, you are off to a good start! After skating I talked to Cathy (Skylars mom) for about an hour and a half about pretty much everything under the sun. I just love talking to older women who aren't my mom. Not in like a weird way...I just think it's nice to have someone to talk to like an older sister. You know?
After that I set off for New Brunswick to get sushi with my friend Alex. We hadn't seen each other in a long time and it was so nice to catch up. And I'm sure we will be seeing a lot more of each other while I am in Pippin. Then I went to rehearsal. Thats where the magic happened. Because we've got magic to do...ha. ha.
For those of you who don't know, "Pippin" is the story of a young man named Prince Pippin who is trying to find himself and his purpose. He feels that he is extraordinary and he can't find something to do that is completely fulfilling. So, with the help of the narrator (the leading player), he sets about trying to find out what he wants out of life. He tries to go to war and be a soldier but that doesn't work out. He runs away to visit his grandmother and she tells him to enjoy life and have some sex. So he tries to have some sex (the orgy scene) and it's not really his thing. So then he kills his father and tries to be the king but he fails at that so his father comes back to life. Then he finds a woman named Catherine and her small son Theo and falls in love with her and stays with her for awhile, but then he gets bored and decides that there must be more to life than just living with his girlfriend, so he leaves her. Just when he is about to give up, the leading player tells him that there is one thing that is completely fulfilling and that when he does it, he will shine as brightly as the sun. The leading player tells Pippin to light himself on fire. It is then that the audience realizes that all of the people in the play are inside of Pippins head and they are trying to get him to commit suicide. In the end he doesn't do it and runs off to be with Catherine again, but that last scene when he is fighting against the demons in his head is super fucked up. Like really fucked up. I think that the entire cast left rehearsal tonight completely emotionally drained. This show is literally bringing out every emotion and situation that I am uncomfortable with and making me live through these emotions and situations on a stage. Which I guess is a good thing. But I don't know. This show has literally had me spending the last 3 weeks just psychoanalyzing myself. Ridiculous.
Workout: cardio x
That no eating thing yesterday did not go well. I had a horrible nights sleep and woke up starving. I learned my lesson. Do not starve yourself. It is bad. And sucks. Done.
Workout was fun. I went HARD today. Like super hard. I was sweating bullets when I was done. But it felt awesome.
Today was very physically and emotionally exhausting. As you may have already figured out, I am totes using this blog as more than just an exercise motivator. Sometimes I just need to get it all out. So here we go. Read the rest if you feel like hearing about my day. If not, peace out.
Around noon my mom and sister came home with my moms boyfriends grand-daughter (I know...confusing) Skylar and we went to lunch at a cafe in my town. Thats where the BLT came from. But it was just so good I couldn't say no. And it came with a salad so whatever. I had some healthy in there. I mean honestly, my diet was pretty freakin awesome today. I shouldn't beat myself up about it. Anyway, after lunch, I took Skylar home. Now Skylar and her big brother Lucas both play ice hockey and they are very into it, so their dad builds an ice rink in their back yard every winter so the kids can practice. So before I drove Sky home, I grabbed my ice skates and ended up skating for about an hour, which is pretty decent exercise too. You can get exercise just by doing stuff. As long as you get your body moving, you are off to a good start! After skating I talked to Cathy (Skylars mom) for about an hour and a half about pretty much everything under the sun. I just love talking to older women who aren't my mom. Not in like a weird way...I just think it's nice to have someone to talk to like an older sister. You know?
After that I set off for New Brunswick to get sushi with my friend Alex. We hadn't seen each other in a long time and it was so nice to catch up. And I'm sure we will be seeing a lot more of each other while I am in Pippin. Then I went to rehearsal. Thats where the magic happened. Because we've got magic to do...ha. ha.
For those of you who don't know, "Pippin" is the story of a young man named Prince Pippin who is trying to find himself and his purpose. He feels that he is extraordinary and he can't find something to do that is completely fulfilling. So, with the help of the narrator (the leading player), he sets about trying to find out what he wants out of life. He tries to go to war and be a soldier but that doesn't work out. He runs away to visit his grandmother and she tells him to enjoy life and have some sex. So he tries to have some sex (the orgy scene) and it's not really his thing. So then he kills his father and tries to be the king but he fails at that so his father comes back to life. Then he finds a woman named Catherine and her small son Theo and falls in love with her and stays with her for awhile, but then he gets bored and decides that there must be more to life than just living with his girlfriend, so he leaves her. Just when he is about to give up, the leading player tells him that there is one thing that is completely fulfilling and that when he does it, he will shine as brightly as the sun. The leading player tells Pippin to light himself on fire. It is then that the audience realizes that all of the people in the play are inside of Pippins head and they are trying to get him to commit suicide. In the end he doesn't do it and runs off to be with Catherine again, but that last scene when he is fighting against the demons in his head is super fucked up. Like really fucked up. I think that the entire cast left rehearsal tonight completely emotionally drained. This show is literally bringing out every emotion and situation that I am uncomfortable with and making me live through these emotions and situations on a stage. Which I guess is a good thing. But I don't know. This show has literally had me spending the last 3 weeks just psychoanalyzing myself. Ridiculous.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Day Eight
Food: half a chicken pot pie. not even kidding. oh and some green tea. and water.
Workout: Core Synergistics
Workout went well today. I couldn't do all of the reps in some of the exercises, but I did all of the exercises. Except for the bonus round. But thats ok. That can be my goal for next week. Or maybe week 4 or 5. Whatever.
I'm surprisingly not hungry. I know that my diet today sounds like a major case of anorexia. But its really just a major case of not being hungry. And a case of having to be the closest to naked in public as I have been in 3 years in a little over than 2 weeks time. On a stage.
Speaking of being naked on a stage, I am just so uncomfortable with that number. And with sex in general. Like. I freeze completely whenever we have to ad-lib sex. And I kind of feel like I am going to vomit everywhere. I can do the choreographed stuff no problem. If someone tells me what to do then I can do it. But I am just a horrible ad-libber. Especially because I am just so uncomfortable with sex. Gross. Ugh. I have been trying to psycho-analyze myself and figure out why I am so uncomfortable. In high school I was totally ok with sex. I guess it's because I gained weight and lost confidence. Even today, one of my fellow players told me that I look like I had lost weight (in the last week lol) and you would think that a compliment would give me the confidence to just...bend over or something. Shake my booty. But nope. I think that it's because in my head I'm still fat. I feel like I still have so many wobbly bits even though I have a lot less than I used to. I don't know. I just have to like...get drunk and have a really slutty night. Maybe then I can loosen up. Get that stick out of my ass. Nah mean?
Workout: Core Synergistics
Workout went well today. I couldn't do all of the reps in some of the exercises, but I did all of the exercises. Except for the bonus round. But thats ok. That can be my goal for next week. Or maybe week 4 or 5. Whatever.
I'm surprisingly not hungry. I know that my diet today sounds like a major case of anorexia. But its really just a major case of not being hungry. And a case of having to be the closest to naked in public as I have been in 3 years in a little over than 2 weeks time. On a stage.
Speaking of being naked on a stage, I am just so uncomfortable with that number. And with sex in general. Like. I freeze completely whenever we have to ad-lib sex. And I kind of feel like I am going to vomit everywhere. I can do the choreographed stuff no problem. If someone tells me what to do then I can do it. But I am just a horrible ad-libber. Especially because I am just so uncomfortable with sex. Gross. Ugh. I have been trying to psycho-analyze myself and figure out why I am so uncomfortable. In high school I was totally ok with sex. I guess it's because I gained weight and lost confidence. Even today, one of my fellow players told me that I look like I had lost weight (in the last week lol) and you would think that a compliment would give me the confidence to just...bend over or something. Shake my booty. But nope. I think that it's because in my head I'm still fat. I feel like I still have so many wobbly bits even though I have a lot less than I used to. I don't know. I just have to like...get drunk and have a really slutty night. Maybe then I can loosen up. Get that stick out of my ass. Nah mean?
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Day Seven
END OF WEEK 1!
So I decided not to stretch today. Whatever. I can rest too. And what a lovely rest it has been so far! Lots of ukulele playing, watching yesterdays Oprah, watching Boy Meets World, and next up is Toy Story 3! And I'm curling my hair! So much fun. I also found a really excellent fat picture of myself. Its a picture from last years (or maybe 2 years ago) Haefeli Family Christmas Party. A wonderful tradition. So I'm gonna put up a picture from that and a picture from Christmas of this year so you can see the difference.
probably around 200 lbs
probably around 162 lbs
So I decided not to stretch today. Whatever. I can rest too. And what a lovely rest it has been so far! Lots of ukulele playing, watching yesterdays Oprah, watching Boy Meets World, and next up is Toy Story 3! And I'm curling my hair! So much fun. I also found a really excellent fat picture of myself. Its a picture from last years (or maybe 2 years ago) Haefeli Family Christmas Party. A wonderful tradition. So I'm gonna put up a picture from that and a picture from Christmas of this year so you can see the difference.
probably around 200 lbs
probably around 162 lbsRight? Super different. I'm pretty proud of myself now that I can really see the evidence. That's the great thing about facebook. Your past is right there on the internet and you can track your sense of fashion, your look, your relationships, or even (like me) your weight loss. Awesome
Okay so goals for the week:
1. Do all exercises. Not necessarily all of the reps for all of the exercises because I know I'm not up to that yet (even though I will try) but I have to at least do all of the exercises. No skipping. I can press pause and take a break for a second, but I have to do the exercises. Even though school is starting.
2. Put exercising into my school schedule. Because school is 40 minutes away, I will have to work out either before I leave or after I am done for the day. But I need to put it into my schedule just like a class.
3. Start packing lunch/dinner/snacks for school/work/rehearsal so I stop spending money that I don't have and so I eat a lot healthier. It's a lot easier to eat healthily if you are in complete control of what you put into your body.
So that's it for now. But yay week one! I'm proud of myself. And I'm kind of excited to work out again tomorrow. But for now, a hot bath and tiger balm.
Friday, January 14, 2011
Day Six
Food: so far a protein bar but I have work tonight and I probably won't post what my dinner was later.
Workout: Kenpo X
So I was doing my kenpo workout and getting all sweaty and loving every minute of it (seriously though) and like...the last ten minutes of the disc doesn't work! It's all scratched up! And I hadn't even taken it out of the case yet! So I called beach body. Hopefully they will send me another one because it was seriously an awesome cardio workout and I can't wait to do it again next week.
After today, I'm technically done working out for the week. Yep. Tomorrow it says to either do X Stretch or to rest. I'm gonna opt to do the stretching because my body could really use it. But honestly, it really wasn't that bad. Yeah, P90X kicks my ass, but it feels worth it. My body feels fantastic. I actually almost weighed myself this morning even though I told myself I would wait til day 30 because I feel like I have lost weight. But I don't want to get ahead of myself. Maybe when I get to day 15 I'll step on the scale. We'll see.
I also decided that Every time I get to the 7th day of the workout week, I am going to decide on and list my goals for the upcoming week. Just writing that here now so I don't forget.
So I found out earlier this week (I don't know why I didn't write this already) that one of my costumes in Pippin is going to be really revealing. Like. Two Piece. Bra and underwear typer thing. Except more costumey. I didn't think I would have to make my two piece debut until at least May. But I guess not. So just don't be surprised if you see that my diet becomes apples, gum, water, and celery. Because I have like...20 days until opening night. Awesome.
Workout: Kenpo X
So I was doing my kenpo workout and getting all sweaty and loving every minute of it (seriously though) and like...the last ten minutes of the disc doesn't work! It's all scratched up! And I hadn't even taken it out of the case yet! So I called beach body. Hopefully they will send me another one because it was seriously an awesome cardio workout and I can't wait to do it again next week.
After today, I'm technically done working out for the week. Yep. Tomorrow it says to either do X Stretch or to rest. I'm gonna opt to do the stretching because my body could really use it. But honestly, it really wasn't that bad. Yeah, P90X kicks my ass, but it feels worth it. My body feels fantastic. I actually almost weighed myself this morning even though I told myself I would wait til day 30 because I feel like I have lost weight. But I don't want to get ahead of myself. Maybe when I get to day 15 I'll step on the scale. We'll see.
I also decided that Every time I get to the 7th day of the workout week, I am going to decide on and list my goals for the upcoming week. Just writing that here now so I don't forget.
So I found out earlier this week (I don't know why I didn't write this already) that one of my costumes in Pippin is going to be really revealing. Like. Two Piece. Bra and underwear typer thing. Except more costumey. I didn't think I would have to make my two piece debut until at least May. But I guess not. So just don't be surprised if you see that my diet becomes apples, gum, water, and celery. Because I have like...20 days until opening night. Awesome.
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