Day Nine

Food: a pear, an avocado BLT, edamame, and a spicy tuna roll with brown rice. and all of my liquids were water.
Workout: cardio x

That no eating thing yesterday did not go well. I had a horrible nights sleep and woke up starving. I learned my lesson. Do not starve yourself. It is bad. And sucks. Done.

Workout was fun. I went HARD today. Like super hard. I was sweating bullets when I was done. But it felt awesome.

Today was very physically and emotionally exhausting. As you may have already figured out, I am totes using this blog as more than just an exercise motivator. Sometimes I just need to get it all out. So here we go. Read the rest if you feel like hearing about my day. If not, peace out.

Around noon my mom and sister came home with my moms boyfriends grand-daughter (I know...confusing) Skylar and we went to lunch at a cafe in my town. Thats where the BLT came from. But it was just so good I couldn't say no. And it came with a salad so whatever. I had some healthy in there. I mean honestly, my diet was pretty freakin awesome today. I shouldn't beat myself up about it. Anyway, after lunch, I took Skylar home. Now Skylar and her big brother Lucas both play ice hockey and they are very into it, so their dad builds an ice rink in their back yard every winter so the kids can practice. So before I drove Sky home, I grabbed my ice skates and ended up skating for about an hour, which is pretty decent exercise too. You can get exercise just by doing stuff. As long as you get your body moving, you are off to a good start! After skating I talked to Cathy (Skylars mom) for about an hour and a half about pretty much everything under the sun. I just love talking to older women who aren't my mom. Not in like a weird way...I just think it's nice to have someone to talk to like an older sister. You know?

After that I set off for New Brunswick to get sushi with my friend Alex. We hadn't seen each other in a long time and it was so nice to catch up. And I'm sure we will be seeing a lot more of each other while I am in Pippin. Then I went to rehearsal. Thats where the magic happened. Because we've got magic to do...ha. ha.

For those of you who don't know, "Pippin" is the story of a young man named Prince Pippin who is trying to find himself and his purpose. He feels that he is extraordinary and he can't find something to do that is completely fulfilling. So, with the help of the narrator (the leading player), he sets about trying to find out what he wants out of life. He tries to go to war and be a soldier but that doesn't work out. He runs away to visit his grandmother and she tells him to enjoy life and have some sex. So he tries to have some sex (the orgy scene) and it's not really his thing. So then he kills his father and tries to be the king but he fails at that so his father comes back to life. Then he finds a woman named Catherine and her small son Theo and falls in love with her and stays with her for awhile, but then he gets bored and decides that there must be more to life than just living with his girlfriend, so he leaves her. Just when he is about to give up, the leading player tells him that there is one thing that is completely fulfilling and that when he does it, he will shine as brightly as the sun. The leading player tells Pippin to light himself on fire. It is then that the audience realizes that all of the people in the play are inside of Pippins head and they are trying to get him to commit suicide. In the end he doesn't do it and runs off to be with Catherine again, but that last scene when he is fighting against the demons in his head is super fucked up. Like really fucked up. I think that the entire cast left rehearsal tonight completely emotionally drained. This show is literally bringing out every emotion and situation that I am uncomfortable with and making me live through these emotions and situations on a stage. Which I guess is a good thing. But I don't know. This show has literally had me spending the last 3 weeks just psychoanalyzing myself. Ridiculous.